God's Grace

After after a day of traveling to the hospital coming and going for feedings Cam and I were exhausted emotional and physically. The doctors and nurses told us they wanted to keep Paisley one more day at least. We just did not understand, we cried out to God in complaint. In between feedings we drove around the houses in Redlands and planned out all these reasons we should be able to take our baby home. We had our game plan ready for when we went in next. Wehat we were really doing was trying to take the whole situation into our own hands. Well usually when you do this it doesn't work....and it didn't! The nurse (we both disliked she sweet-talked us) shot down all our reasons we thought it was better she went home. Little did we know and think that God wanted to keep her there one more day to teach us. Despite lots of tears me and Cam developed our relationship on new levels. We learned that God is full of Grace and mercy. As the day went on he showed us numerous glimpses of his grace. First glimpse, so they weighted Paisley before and after each feeding to see how much she ate. Well the next feeding she gained the exact amount they wanted to see her eating, coincidence or God you can decide. Next glimpse, as I was coming up the elevator I started talking to this lady asking about the baby she was there for. She was the grandma of Logan the micro premie next to Paisley. Micro premie, he was born at 22 weeks, less than a pound. We talked for a bit I got the whole story and told her I would be praying for Logan and his mom because they were on a long journey much longer than ours. Another reminder our situation could be a lot worse. Maybe that's why God wanted Paisley to stay another night so I would meet this grandma and we could encourage each other. Everything happens for a reason. Third glimpse, so Paisley had this feeding tube in her nose went straight to her stomach. They feed her thought that when she was too tired to eat. (They gorged my poor baby in there.) Any way, so Cam and I had talked about asking them to take it out it was a hinderence to getting her strong enough to be able to come home. Well our little stubborn fighter did not like all the things on her from the get-go. Low-and-behold as Cam is holding her she rips the thing right out. Was she trying to tell us something, was God showing through our little girl that he was in charge and not the nurses. Last glimpse of Gods Grace was the night nurse we had. She was patient and caring. She shared with Cam the specific diagnosis of Paisley and saw how healthy she was getting. She appeared to think and wonder why Paisely was still in there too. Did God Grace us with this nurse to provide a glimpse of hope? At the end of the night we went home with much different emotions then the night before. Earlier we had talked about not crying on the way home and we almost achieved that. Our tears this time were more joyful and thankful. We were filled with joy at how our bigger than big God had cared about our complaining selves and revealed numerous glimpses of his love to us. He did not have to but he did because he loves us.

Homestretch

Week 38 and 39 

Total weight gain: gained 25 pounds

Maternity clothes: my favorite maternity shorts but rug all shirts.

Stretch marks: No new ones.

Sleep: Getting up a couple times to go to the bathroom because my whole stomach just aches, peeing helps a little. It's starting to get uncomfortable but nothing that keeps me from sleep.

Best moment of this week: Going to dog beach with Trouty. He loved running up and down the shore but avoids the water.

Miss anything: energy.

Movement: Oh yes she is moving even more, she has not slowed down at all!

Food cravings: nothing really new. Just same old In-n-Out

Belly button in or out: It's getting smaller.

Wedding rings on or off: On.

Happy or moody most of the time: Mostly happy

Looking forward to: Birthday and wishing she would come early for my present.

Total weight gain: gained 25 pounds

Best moment of this week: Going down to Redondo Beach to ride bikes and eat at Rudy's. Yep 39 weeks and riding a bike, my dad tried to stop me saying it wasn't good, mom and Cam thought it was ok. 

Miss anything: room to eat and not feel full all the time.

Movement: Oh yes, still not slowing down.

Food cravings: nothing really new, just French fries

Belly button in or out: It's getting smaller.

Wedding rings on or off: On,

Looking forward to: Her coming!

Week 35,36,37

Total weight gain: about 24 pounds

Maternity clothes: most comfortable shorts I found at Ross and had to go back and get another pair.

Sleep: Getting up to go pee about two times a night. Tossing and Turning and my stomach hurts when I get up.

Best moment of this week: Having the shower, and last week having the family shower. 

Miss anything: Sangria and normal looking ankles!

Movement: Yes throughput the day and night but not keeping me up, thankfully.

Food cravings: Never got my cinnamon roll! Nothing really though kinda less hungry. 

Labor signs: Menstrual cramp feelings, pressure and going to the bathroom after I eat anything. Also tired and feeling out of it and allergies.

Belly measuring: 40 inches

Wedding rings on or off: On, luckily my hands are not swelling only my feet/ankles.

Looking forward to: Her coming any time now. Fourth of July is very soon.

Week 34

Best moment of this week: Having a sonogram, seeing her lips, nose and cheeks! She was doing a sucking motion with pouty lips. She also got the hiccups at the end when she was showing me her heart and spine! She kept saying how pretty she was. 

Miss anything: Not feeling like I have to go to the bathroom 

Movement: Yes 

Food cravings: different things at different moments. I had to buy Pop Tarts today while at Walmart and had to eat them when I got in the car but they were not as good as I wanted. This seems to be the trend. I am very picky about my French fries they can't be soggy, have to be well done. My father-n-law made some really good ones for dinner tonight. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: nope

Happy or moody most of the time: Both. I keep coming across sad stories about people losing their baby. Mostly happy though. I did get emotional like always when I left the dr. Seeing Paisley on the sonogram always makes me emotional I always cry in the car when I leave. 

Looking forward to: Our last vacation just the two of us this weekend, going to an Angels game Friday night and staying in Newport for the weekend. 

Week 33

Total weight gain: gained 18 pounds

Maternity clothes: Yes, just got some very comfy and cute shorts. I do still wear normal clothes altered with hair ties. 😉

Stretch marks: I think I do have one on my boob; which I don't understand because I faithfully put cocoa butter with vitamin e on daily.

Sleep: Pretty good occasionally get up early morning to go pee. Last night was bad due to this stupid cold!

Best moment of this week: registering and touring the hospital. Going to Flemings to celebrate Cams promotion. Also having Monday off with Cam. Getting the nursery together. Finally all done, We just want to add some stuff to the walls.

Miss anything: Same things and breathing normally, not getting out of breath.

Movement: Yes throughout the day now!

Food cravings: Same, waffles, In-n-Out, and my newest one which I have not had yet a cinnamon roll. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: nope!

Have you started to show yet: Yes finally

Belly button in or out: Half and half it is getting smaller.

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Both, there is just so much going on, so much unknown with Cam getting promoted and starting training. He will have to go to michigan for a week sometime in the next 8 weeks and not knowing where or what his hours will be full time when he is done. It is all in Gods hands though!

Looking forward to: dr appt tomorrow and Hanging out with a friend Friday. Also having dinner with Cam every night because he goes in at 9pm the next two weeks.

Mid week blessings

So numerous blessings today! 

Found out Cam is getting promoted and starts training Sunday. 

Coworkers had a small surprise shower for me during class. 

Also the little girl in my class I witnessed fall head first off the monkey bars was at school today.

Definitely the most startling I've witnessed teaching. I watched her fall straight down from the monkey bars as she was hanging upside down. This little girl hangs upside down all the time but for some weird reason just fell. She got up on her own but wobbled and looked like she couldn't breathe. I'm thinking oh man do I need to do CPR, will I remember everything I need to. Luckily she was okay I helped her to a bench to sit down. 

I was glad to see her at school today!

Week 32

How far along: 32 weeks

Total weight gain: gained 18 pounds

Maternity clothes: Yes or altered normal clothes. Low shorts, bigger tops.

Stretch marks: Nope

Sleep: Yes I have been sleeping through the night or waking up early morning to go to the bathroom. 

Best moment of this week: Getting stuff for the nursery. Going to an Angel game and spending time in the mountains.

Miss anything: Nothing new

Movement: Oh yes! It is getting stronger too!

Food cravings: Nothing new, just the usual In-n-Out

Anything making you queasy or sick: nope!

Have you started to show yet: Yes

Belly button in or out: It's getting smaller

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy and emotional at times

Looking forward to: hospital tour and registering this weekend!